my situation now..

left:(2 years ago,still the happy-go-lucky girl)

right:(the now me)

well i seem to forget who i used to be,.. hectic life of high school seems to be so far away from me now.. nowadays all i do is go to univ. and go home , eat, sleep and internet..
what happen to my beautiful, busy life..
even my character change.. my friends were all gone to other countries, where the one stays in indo are still there, but it doesn't fell like what they used to be.. i'm in a state of confusion and stress and especialy an-sos (antisocial) i don't seem like to be a friend to anyone nowadays, don't feel like one either..

while just then i saw photo album of me (facebook) when i'm in highschool with all my dearest friend i look so happy wild crazy and alll. no fake smile and laughs.. all the photo comments was,
-wow ria is such a happy go lucky girl and all.
- all jokes about me and all
what happen to me i seem to be miserable.. i used to have a high ups and down in life facing many problems, well not that i ask for one, it's just that my life seems so stable in the middle of life's meter level... no problems to be wrried about just that i'm scared of changing into a unhappy girl .. and stress free... well in addition to that nothing to celebrates about.. allf of them seems dull and lost.. i guess i need to go party and need my bitchess back damn much.. hhaha